Husband, Father, Athlete, Runner, Marathoner, Mental Health Warrior

Hello True Believers, If you have known me for a significant amount of time, you know that I suffer from depression. I use present tense, because no one is ever actually cured of depression, you just learn to live/cope/deal/handle it. You learn how to not let it control you. The bigger adjustment knows, also in comparison to a tidal wave, there are times all you can do is hope to float and ride the crest of the wave out, hoping not to take in too much water. Knowing the victory is in the fact you didn’t give in to the abyss, or the abyss didn’t drown you. I am going through one of those “Abyss stare downs” now. Not sure why, and I am careful not to fall into THAT trap of driving myself to the brink of insanity trying to figure out the WHY . That is about as useful, and equally frustrating, as a drawer full of knives when I just poured myself a bowl of cereal. Instead, I am trying to look outside myself. A trick I learned a few years ago. Instead of...

Hello Everyone,      It has been a while since I have written, because it feels like I have had so much on my mind and heart, I didn't really know where to start. Well after yesterday 3 surgeries, I have 2 weeks of non exercise time, so I have things I want to get off my chest.      Now first off, many of you who follow me on twitter or Facebook  might be wondering why I never mentioned I was going to have surgery until the day before. Well that is simple...and I am not trying to be harsh, but I am daily surrounded by people who complain about situations they put themselves in, or always have a new crisis every couple of days. So, I never wanted conversations to turn into "Can you top this" sort of thing. Also, and not being judgmental  just being honest, people sort of expect me to help solve their problems...no one really ever ask me about mine, or if I even have them.       Well, due ...